Now these things don't really need a structure. Write a thought there, a thought here, whatever. Right now I write to you because, as has been the norm for several weeks, my mind starts to race when I try to sleep. My hope is by writing I cool my jets and unbusy my mind to go to sleep. Fingers crossed. It's anxiety. Since my mind doesn't have the distractions and occupations of the day, the mind will remind you of all those things you have been actively avoiding all day. One of the biggest things I am constantly worrying about is finding a job, and not just any job but one that I would enjoy and be passionate about. Another thing is a relationship but that is another subject for a different time with complexities I don't really completely comprehend.
Now it's going to be 2 years since I graduated and work hasn't been nessarily solid during that time. Since college the only thing that was pretty consistent in life was the Army but that unfortunately came to an end in February. Better yet instead of saying it came to an end, let's say it is on hautis with a big old "to be continued" label tacked on at the end. I don't want to ever close that option out forever. I love the Army too much. Anyways, army consistent everything else not so much. I was blessed with an opportunity to work at a law office June of last year after I "recovered" from my break up. That chapter of my life, however, quickly ended 5 months later in the end of October. Now, there was a lot factors that contributed to this course of action from myself and the law office, but it pretty much came down to that we were not on the same path. I felt they wanted me to breath and live the office and for me that wasn't going to happen. They didn't give me a reason to live and breath my work. The environment wasn't there and the expectations we had for each other was not what we thought.
TO BE CONTINUED...
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