1/30/2021- The New Year

 What can I say but I have been lagging again on putting anything up. In fact, I have actually put a bit of distance between me and social media as a whole. No particular reason, like other times. Such as getting envious of other peoples relationships, or perceived happiness. No this time I turned away from social media because I felt I was wasting too much time on it. I will glance at it from time to time but I made it difficult for me to it so I'm not tempted to do it more often. 

Outside of that nothing has really been going on which is both a good thing and a bad thing. I kinda like where I am at right now. Going on walks, sleeping a good amount of time, spending time with the family, working on things I want to do and so on. The only problem is for now its not really stable. I still need a job and pay my bills. I over extended. If I didn't have as much debt as I do being unemployed wouldn't be a huge problem but it is and being in the level of debt I am I can't really take too much time to myself. I need to bring that under control then I will be more at ease with the things I want to do for me. 

2021 has to be a huge year of sacrifice. If I want to be able to live more comfortably I can't just be slow chipping or adding to the mountain that is my debt. I need to take huge swaths out of it at a time. This can mean 4 things:

1. Find a high paying job. (Easier said than done, at this point, however, I think I have enough experience to negotiate something higher than just barely over minimum wage).
2. Find a job that gives a huge amount of hours. (This option I dread the most. I like my me time and I feel this option I could easily find myself burning out in unless I can achieve option 3).
3. Find a job that gives a huge amount of hours and pays well. (This one is a no brainier. Less likely to give in to burn out if the pay is good and it helps me to get to finishing my goals faster. For this I was thinking trucking but it requires investing up front. Which I am not 100% ready to do. 
4. Go back to the Reserves. 

Now this last option takes a little bit from the other 3 options. If I do make the choice of returning to the Reserves, I need to focus on one thing first getting back into shape. The good job search would need to take a back seat. Make enough money to cruise until I go back to training. Obviously, if I do go back I'm going to make my diploma work for me and I am going to lead and give more to the Army and my peers. Once I return I will hopefully have enough money to hold me until I complete the requirements I need to do to be a trucker or maybe I will do active Reserve or maybe another opportunity will present it's self. I have no idea I just know I have options. 

This is why I have been overly concern in staying active, I just need to be better about what food I put in my system but one goal at a time. I don't want to over reach and quit lol. As for streaming I do plan to come back but as of when I don't know. I might change the set up too. I might focus more on uploading videos on YouTube and overlaying commentary on video after the fact. Instead of doing it at the moment. Then again doing it live does present for better material. I don't know, I guess I will have to see what feels more comfortable. 

 I guess that is it for the time being.