The days have been… slow. It’s weird to not have that person
who you can confide with and share everything. From when you are feeling your best
to when you are feeling your lowest. I think writing will help with keeping
things in check.
It has been a while since I posted, but at least, I think,
this year is going to have the most posts posted in a single year. So, yay for
that. I just recently came back from my trip to Mexico. It was as always very fulfilling.
I wouldn’t say exciting or fun because some days are just the slowest boring thing,
but I wouldn’t change it for the world. Mexico is just a nice way to get out of
the norm and catch up with people who you haven’t really heard from in a while.
Man do I wish I could have stayed longer.
One week in Mexico is not nearly long enough time to be
completely fulfilling for me. It went by so fast, and everything felt so rushed
and some things felt incomplete. I didn’t get to help my grandpa with his phone
issues, didn’t get to explore as much as I wanted, and I didn’t get to eat
everything I wanted. As fast as it went it is nice to be back home. It’s going
to be a while to have Mexico feel normal and not bring heart ache when I go.
It was the right thing to do but it still hurts. Things
changed for us, and some things didn’t. I was so unsure of what I wanted to do
when I first met her, and it felt like each path I took just lead to a dead end.
The US or at least CA felt like it needed to go, and I needed to go somewhere
else and start fresh. I always like Mexico maybe try out there I thought at the
time. Things did change though I finally found my footing, I found stability. Although
I dislike the fast pace of things here at least I had the option to not have to
do it forever. Save enough and just get, but that would have taken too long.
She never had any intention of moving away from her part of
the world. She made it clear from the start. I hoped to change her mind, but I
never really had the chance. Although having her far was difficult for me it
was a whole different kind of challenging for her. It ate at her physically and
mentally. It just wasn’t healthy and there was nothing I could do to make
things better for her. It’s better this way but it still hurts.
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