I am pretty sure that other thing I was doing was holding me back. I have more energy and patience for everything now. Waking up is still a pain in the ass but it is easier. I didn't ever think I'd be waking up before 5:30 am 5 times a week.
Plus I am becoming more self aware of what I want to do in my life. I'm applying to Lockheed. It is not a risk as of yet but it can become one. Fingers crossed it does become one and a good one. My job now is a good one but it isn't what I want to do for a lifetime. I get bored really easy and it is hard to concentrate on the work sometimes. Not only that but the commute is brutal on me and the car that I drive.
I think Palmdale is going to be my permanent place of residence. I don't really have an innate desire to leave CA or in fact Palmdale for that matter. Nor am I opposed to it it just not something I am seeking. As long as I have a home and a workshop I will be happy. For the material things lol there is so much more I would like to have for me spiritually and emotionally.
